Thursday, January 16, 2014

Poem Post #3 The Kitchen Chicken

This was first ever poem I wrote for poetry class.  At the time, I thought poetry consisted of only rhymes and rhythms. It's called The Kitchen Chicken.

The air is dry and the light is dim,
Morning has come, in this kitchen within.
The silence is loud,
The colors are white,
A plain kitchen it is,
Without any light.
But as the sun comes up,
The kitchen starts to glow,
Footsteps down the stairs,
Mom comes in all nappy and slow.

She opens the oven,
To cook her favorite dish,
Green pistachio muffins,
A meal to certainly cherish.
But what a sight to see,
Inside the oven did she.
 A flea covered chicken,
She left unintentionally.

100 flies some dead some flying,
Mom screamed and ran out, sympathizing.

“O Why O Me?!”
A rage she unshed.
But silenced Mom became,
As the chicken turned its head.
The horror it was,
To see it alive,
Staring into her soul,
As its wings start to rive.

But the story ends here,
For ideas I am out,
An ending you could make,

 I don’t have a doubt.

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

Fourth song!

New song on my channel (Desideratum Official)!  I starting to learn more and more about making music and I hope to become a better composer with each song.  :D

Monday, January 13, 2014

Following Your Passion

So I had a conversation with my dad about one's passion and paying the bills.  I asked my brother what he wants to be when he grows up, and he said that he wants to obtain a job somewhere in the medical field.  I then asked if that was his passion.  He never answered.  With my dad eavesdropping, he told me that he supports me and my siblings to follow their passion, but also to be smart about it.  My dad knows that I love to make music and write poetry, so he warned me about chasing dreams.  He said that with the world so fixed on paying bills and earning an income, it is hard to follow your passions while being able to eat.  He also said that with music, it is all about being able to make people give you money.  The celebrities today have the same talent as the high school rapper dreaming of becoming big.  The only difference is that the celebrities know how to monetize their music and image. He told me a story of how he also chased his passion after watching Star Trek and Star Wars, dreaming of becoming an engineer so he could build huge ships and laser weapons.  He went on to study engineering at MIT, but was surprised that engineering was totally different that what he had imagined.  And with the moral of the story, he said that following your passion may not end with the outcome you wanted.  So here I am thinking about my career path and questioning about the two roads that face me: one where I study mathematics and science to secure a high paying job with the risk of not being happy, or pursue my passion of music and risk not having a job.  

Decisions decisions...

Friday, January 3, 2014

Two more songs!

So I made two more songs and I must say the third one called Gory Glory is pretty good haha!  I'm still playing around with melodies and how epic music theory works (if that's a thing).  Enjoy!





Only a Dream

Here's another poem that is basically part two of the first one

Only a Dream

It was only a dream.
With my backpack and boots I hiked
Across the country with a pencil in hand.
Finally, near the giant oak I visit every year, my pencil readies.
A white bark of wood on the ground
Welcomed my pencil, as I start to write, “Dear S…”
-but a rustle startled me. 

In the corner of my eye, an owner and its dog,
Walking placidly among themselves, not knowing who
I was.  As I turn my head, my eyes met hers. 
Like water turning to ice, I froze
And so did she.  A hundred men could not have moved me nor
Time age me.  Inside, enchantment was fighting panic,
Like angels and Death disputing over the dying man. 
It took the strength of my soul to move my feet.

As if in parallel, we met in the middle under the oak tree.
Her visage was the most magnificent image my eyes longed
For. Greater than the wonders of the Earth, the stars in the
Universe, the unexplainable wonders.  As I have been
Waiting for Her
For a million years, she stood right in front of me. 
To see her so close, so near, it was…I was in
Paradise.

Mouth opened, no words filled the void.  We spoke through
Our eyes, as tears clouded my vision.  She asked me, ‘with the
World of other flowers, why water the one that is being watered?’
And when I told her, trickles of sadness ran down her face.
At the moment when she looked up, I can tell she took my words
And kept it in her soul. 

As the bright sunlit world started to
Darken, I held my hand to her face,
Heart to heart, mind to mind, soul to soul.  I wiped the liquid
Crystal falling from her eyes, seeing sudden eagerness behind them…as
She faded away. 

I woke with my hand in the air, touching, just the air.
I would relive that moment forever, even if
It was fixed within repetition, as it was the only time
When time is perfect.
Now I sleep for that chance again, for


It was only a dream.

Monday, December 30, 2013

First Poem Post!

So here's a poem I made in my first semester of college while taking a course called The Practice of Poetry.  I feel that poetry expresses yourself in a way essays and stories can't, that's why I love poetry.

Waiting for Her

My face expressionless, like a blank piece of paper.
Here I spend my days sitting
And waiting for my dream to come true.  God
Does not answer the small prayers I send every
Day, since the day she left.  Like a soft wind in the
Desert, my happiness gently sails away, only to be
Replaced by depriving hopelessness.  It saddens me
To know she does not understand what I feel.  I weep
At night knowing
She will never. And yet,

What do I miss about her?
Will it be her dark brown eyes
That one can stare at forever? Or maybe
Her silky hair that flows like liquid hazelnut,
Delicately tinted a golden shade?
Her smile engraved in my brain
Like a tattoo, but I know the sting will never end.
Not ever again will I be able to
Appreciate her beauty, forever longing to
See again, like a man losing his vision.  The aching
Inside claws at my mind, scraping out every
Last sane thought,
Making my days turn dark.
I walk everyday through
My colorless life, seeking an end in limbo.
I wait for something.  Anything,
To rescue me. But hope is far, like an old memory
Trying to be remembered.
What can save me; it is so
Simple.
I only need to see her again.

If by luck, blessing, or time,
I won’t complain
Should dream become reality,
An end to this miserable blindness
Would arise with full liberation.
Meanings in everyday doings would have
A greater significance.  The dim light that
Shines on Earth would be as bright as His brilliance.
Black will turn gray, and the entrance out of nothingness
Would appear.  The crumpled bottle I hold in my hand would
Finally be filled with water, cleansed like a baptism of a sinner.

But this is only
If it were. 
I am still here.
Waiting.
Stuck within a dark cage,
Hands feeling the ground
for the key.
Wishing and dreaming


For her arrival.

Saturday, December 28, 2013

First Original Composition


Here is a composition I made with GarageBand.  It's my first song without any loops and I found joy in creating something that I can share with YouTube (and the world for that matter).  I am definitely planning on making more muuuuusic!